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  Jones looked troubled. “If the play displeases the people of Stratford, I will suffer in their esteem.”

  “I have some skill with verses,” said Will. “With your leave I will make the old pageant new, and you shall be praised for it.”

  Jones hesitated. He was paid a good wage for his yearly efforts and was unwilling to share it, Will knew.

  “I want no payment. Only permit me to play the first shepherd,” he said. Thus reassured, Jones gave his ready consent.

  Will knew the old pageant by heart. He began revising it in his head as he worked. At first the words trickled through his brain like water in a dry brook. Why, it was easier to translate Latin sentences! But when he thought of Catherine the rhymes flowed freely. At night he scribbled down his new verses by the flame of a candle stub. A week later he visited David Jones with his finished pages.

  Nodding as he read it Jones said, “I like it very well. The Summer Queen is hard of heart but women are ever so.”

  Affecting nonchalance Will said, “I care not who plays the queen, but let the younger Hathaway sister be my shepherdess. She is nimble and can lead the others in the dance.”

  Will had carefully rewritten the lines he would say to his shepherdess to awaken thoughts of love.

  Behold the queen, the mistress of disdain,

  Leading her king with a rose-red chain.

  When his lips are ready for their pay

  She winks and turns her lips another way.

  Come now you shepherds, all ye red-lipped lasses,

  Praise the god of love, ere summer passes.

  Jones punched Will’s arm. “I see your plot!” he said. “I’ll gladly smooth the path of love for you. She shall be in your arms by nightfall.”

  On the day of the pageant, the mayor’s son and an alderman’s daughter were transformed with flowers and green worsted capes into the king and queen, harbingers of summer. Will, wearing a sheepskin belted at the waist, spoke his lines to Catherine while straining to see through her gauze tunic. She pursed her lips until, cued by his verses, she smiled at him. But she would not kiss him as the other lasses did their shepherds.

  “Please,” he said. “It is written thus.” But she only shook her head.

  Though downcast by her refusal, Will grinned to hear the loud applause, which pleased him more than he had expected.

  After the play, as everyone began to dance, Anne seized Will as her partner and leaped lightly before him. “See, I can dance as prettily as my sister. But no one can rhyme like you, Will Shakespeare.” And she kissed him on the cheek, leaving behind the scent of lilac. Will found himself blushing.

  At least one citizen of Stratford was not pleased with the day’s events. John Shakespeare, though he did not leave his house to see the pageant, heard about Will’s role in it. That night Will felt his wrath.

  “Did I not forbid you to be a player? Yet you deceive me and strut upon a stage before the whole town.” Spittle gathered at the corners of his mouth. “I thought you had forgotten that disgraceful business. Writing verses! What profit is there in such vanity?”

  “Thieving is more disgraceful than acting,” Will shot back, “yet there is profit in it. Many a man, while seeming virtuous, milks the commonwealth for his good alone.”

  His father smoldered like a peat fire. “Hold your peace!” he demanded, reaching for his rod. “I abhor your disobedience!”

  But Will could not be silent. “Next to a thief a player is honest; he takes nothing but the appearance of another and yields it again at the play’s end.” He watched the rod tremble in his father’s hand but felt no fear.

  “I will be a poor player and an honest poet before I will be a false glover.”

  Will’s father turned and struck the table. With a loud crack, his rod broke and clattered to the floor in pieces.

  Chapter 6

  Will had crossed an invisible bridge and was estranged from his father, though they dwelled in the same house. But in his mind Will was absent, always pondering how to leave Stratford. Should he ask the mayor for a letter of introduction to Lord Warwick, or should he hie to London and find employment there? One should not arrive in London penniless. Perhaps it would be wiser to work as a tutor for a year and save his wages. He considered his choices like a clerk comparing columns of figures. Should he leave in secret or tell his mother? And what about Catherine? There was the rub, the biggest hurdle of all. He wanted to marry her and take her with him, but he had yet to declare his love or even to kiss her.

  On market days Will and his brother tended their father’s stall at a prime spot, the stone cross where Henley Street, Bridge Street, and High Street converged. Often Catherine came to Stratford’s market to sell the butter she and her sisters made. Will clipped and perfumed his beard and took to wearing a lace-trimmed shirt, hoping to look his best for her. The effect was like spreading birdlime on a bush; a whole flock of fair admirers was snared. A few even bought gloves.

  But Will’s shy bird did not come flitting by until the last market day in August, when the fruits of the fields and gardens overfilled the many stalls.

  Will was playing the role of a glover’s apprentice to similar excess. “Such pretty fingers, goodwife!” he said, lifting a customer’s forearm by her wrist. “Slip them inside this glove. A perfect fit! Last week Lady Warwick bought a pair just like these.”

  He and Gilbert watched the woman prance away, her newly gloved hands raised for everyone to notice.

  “Confound me if I know how you persuaded a poor laundress she cannot live without a pair of embroidered kid gloves,” Gilbert said.

  Will did not reply. He had glimpsed a familiar brown-haired woman carrying a basket. One of the Hathaway sisters, for certain. As she drew near, his heart leaped. It was Catherine! She smiled shyly and held her basket in front of her. When she drew in her elbows her breasts swelled behind her bodice. Breasts like golden apples, Will thought, faint with desire.

  “Lean closer, mistress, that I might see what’s in your basket.” It was Gilbert who had the boldness to speak.

  Will cuffed him on the ear, knocking off his cap. With an oath Gilbert bent to retrieve it.

  “’Tis only butter,” Catherine said to Will. “Would you like a taste?”

  She stuck her forefinger in the soft butter and held it aloft. Unable to believe his good fortune, Will took her hand and slowly brought it to his mouth. Should he lick her finger or put it in his mouth? He did both, lingering until she pulled her finger away. Will’s heart was beating. This was better than a kiss.

  “When can we meet? I must be alone with you,” he said in a low, urgent voice.

  “Anne watches me like a hawk.”

  “Hoodwink her. Slip away while she sleeps.”

  Catherine raised her eyebrows. “You don’t know my sister.”

  Will groaned. “Pray give me another bite, butterfinger.”

  “Close your eyes.”

  Will obeyed and opened his mouth in anticipation. He felt Catherine’s breath in his ear.

  “Meet me in the Forest of Arden, where the old oak lies across the stream and the rocks with the fairy rings jut from the ground. Tomorrow when the moon is at its height.”

  Will felt a tap on his nose and opened his eyes. Catherine had gone, leaving a dab of melting butter on the end of his nose. With dreamlike slowness he wiped it off. Then he realized the meaning of her invitation. She wanted him as much as he wanted her!

  “Heigh-ho!” he cried, throwing his arms around Gilbert, who was waiting on the alderman’s daughter, and knocking him to the ground. They struck a post, causing the tent to lean and toppling bridles and belts. While Will pummeled his brother with glee, the alderman’s daughter glanced around in a furtive manner, picked up a kidskin purse trimmed in gold braid, and put it in her sleeve. Humming to herself, she walked away.

  Will did not sleep a wink that night, nor could he keep his mind on his work the next day. His thoughts raced like deer before the hounds. Yet the h
ours and minutes of the clock crept like snails. He worried that he would become tongue-tied when he tried to speak his love, so he composed his thoughts into verses and memorized them. Shall I compare you to a summer day? Summer was almost past. You are more lovely than the buds of May.

  By nighttime Will was so weary he was afraid to lie down, lest he fall asleep and miss his meeting with Catherine. He leaned on the windowsill, listening to the creaks and sighs of the house as his family slumbered. He watched the shadows shift along Henley Street until he judged it was time to go. Through the silent town and westward toward Shottery he hurried, his path bordered by nodding gillyflowers and daisies. A grove of alder and birch marked the entrance to the forest. Beyond, thick-trunked oaks all but blocked the moonlight overhead, casting long columns of darkness on the ground. It was the last of August, the night was cool, and his feet were damp with dew from the bracken. He heard the brook singing while the rest of nature slept. Across its banks lay a fallen oak tree and nearby loomed a large rock. This was the spot Catherine had described—but it was deserted.

  Will made his way over the rocks and sat on the trunk of the oak tree, his back resting against a branch. The moon began its descent, darkening the glade. An hour or more passed. Doubt stirred in Will. Had she come first and left because he was not there? Or had she never intended to come? Was he being played for a fool? He called her name but the woods returned no reply.

  Just as Will was beginning to despair, he heard a rustling and saw a figure wrapped in a hooded cloak. Catherine!

  “I thought you would never come,” he said, taking her hand as she climbed over the fallen tree.

  She lowered her head, her brown hair spilling forward. “I was half afraid,” she murmured.

  The darkness made him bold, able to speak without stammering. “Let me see you,” he said and reached out to remove her hood.

  She intercepted his hands and held them. Ever the shy one, she turned her head to the side. So with his lips he ventured beneath her hood and found her forehead. Her hands released his and touched his face instead. A bolt of lightning traveled to the pit of his stomach. He drew in his breath.

  “I have got my wish and you, your Will. So let us kiss and love each other still.”

  At once her mouth covered his, soft and wet. He closed his eyes and opened his lips and with his tongue touched her ivory teeth. Like an explorer he ventured into the cavern of her ruby mouth. He felt at once weak and mighty. And stunned to find her as eager as he was to travel farther.

  “Now let us all the rites of love fulfill.”

  The words were like the sighing of the wind through the trees. Will opened his eyes, but the moon had vanished and he could not see her face. Could this be his shy Catherine? The darkness had emboldened her. She shrugged off her cloak and was looking down to untie her bodice. Her swift, decisive movements reminded Will briefly of Anne. He reached out and pulled her bodice open. She tugged at his shirt and the points of his trousers. This was no dream, he knew as he lowered her to the ground and felt her warm and willing limbs yield to him.

  Afterward she said, her low voice mingling with the gurgle of the brook, “If we follow this deed with vows, then we are wedded one to another.”

  Will was weary with joy. His eyes were closed, the better to feast his other senses upon her. He lowered his head into the slight bowl of her belly. “I promise to be true to you, my Catherine,” he said and fell asleep.

  Daylight shone through Will’s eyelids, forcing him awake. He was curled up on his side, shirtless. He sat up with a groan, wondering why he was in the forest. He remembered Catherine. She was gone. He scratched his head. Had he dreamed the night’s events? He put on his shirt and drew a long, brown hair from the sleeve. No. Catherine must have returned home to avoid rousing suspicion. He smiled to think how easy his task had proven after all. Throughout the summer he had fretted and delayed. Now in a single night he had wooed and won his love.

  Will’s forehead itched from lying on the bracken. He raised his hand to rub it and noticed that the ring he usually wore on his little finger was missing. He did not remember taking it off. Had he given it to Catherine? Had they vowed their love? In the bright light of day, Will was not sure he wanted to be married yet. But he thought of Catherine’s body and the pleasures it afforded him, and his doubts faded.

  Beside him the brook babbled away, telling the secrets of all the lovers who had ever lain on its banks. Will stretched out in a patch of sunlight, letting it dry his dew-damp clothes. He knew he should be at work but cared not a whit for anyone’s disapproval but Catherine’s.

  The day was far gone when Will finally returned to Henley Street. He knew the moment he entered the house that his father’s toubles had flared again, this time into a bonfire.

  John Shakespeare was shouting at his wife. “If I answer this summons, they will throw me into some hellhole of a London prison. Do you want that?”

  “You might as well be in prison! You never leave the house.” Seeing Will, she ran to him. “Alack and well-a-day, my son! We are ruined for certain.”

  “What is the cause, Mother?” he asked, alarmed.

  Will’s father answered, “Burbage has moved to London and is suing me for ten pounds, the amount of loans plus interest.” He leaned on his desk and stared at an open ledger. “You must help me, Will,” he said without looking at him.

  Honeyed thoughts of love melted from Will’s mind. Would his father be forced to sell his business and the house on Henley Street? Where would they all live? His own ambitions seemed frivolous. How could he go away and leave his family in such straits?

  “What can I do more? I am already doing an honest man’s work,” Will said. If his father even hinted at something illegal, Will was prepared to defy him.

  John Shakespeare took out a key and unlocked a heavy oak cabinet behind him. He removed a small casket, unlocked it, and spilled the coins onto his desk.

  “Here are twenty-five crowns I was saving to pay the herald for a coat of arms. But I no longer have cause to be titled a gentleman.” He sounded bitter and defeated.

  Will had never seen so much money. Twenty-five crowns was equal to six pounds, the amount a craftsman might earn in a year. But it was only a portion of what his father owed.

  “Take it, Will. Use a pound to hire a lawyer. Thomas Greene of Middle Temple knows me. Make him persuade Burbage to settle for half the debt.” He searched the summons. “Or the case will be heard at the Queen’s Bench in Westminster on the fifteenth day of October and a penalty determined.”

  Will blinked in amazement. It was not the lawsuit or the sum he disbelieved, but that two extraordinary wishes could be fulfilled in a single day. He struggled to speak.

  “You permit me … to go? Nay, you send me … to London?”

  The look Will’s father gave him said what his words could never say: that he trusted Will to perform this business, knowing he could not make him return to Stratford. He was saving face, granting Will freedom without diminishing his own authority.

  Gratitude and long-buried affection stirred in Will. He knelt to his father as he used to when receiving his nightly blessing and said, “I will find Burbage and persuade him to drop his suit. I will be diligent in all things, Father, and one day you will be proud of me.”

  Will saw the path of his life stretching before him, straight as an arrow’s course. To London, by way of Shottery.

  Will pounded on the door of the Hathaway cottage, calling for Catherine. He shook the latch, leaned his ear against the door, and strained to hear within.

  “I’m here, Will.”

  He whirled around to face a surprised Catherine. Seizing her hand, he drew her into an arbor where roses twined and bloomed and told her what his father had asked him to do, concluding, “Come away with me, Catherine, whom I have missed since last night, as Adam missed the rib taken from his side—”

  “Nay, I missed you, Will.”

  “Then we have lacked one another, but
no longer.” He reached for her other hand. “Why did you leave the forest without waking me?”

  She pulled her hands away and brought them to her bosom. “You are mistaken; I never went to the forest.” Her look was troubled.

  “Then was it a dream? No, these hands and lips swear they touched you.”

  Catherine shook her head violently. “Last night I was locked in my room. Anne was my jailer. And after I confided in her! She said she would not let me risk my virtue.”

  Will ran his hands through his hair. His thoughts were in a muddle. Why would Catherine lie to him? Did she regret her hasty vow? He looked into her eyes and saw a fury he did not understand.

  Catherine stamped her foot. “O vile sister! Where are you hiding?”

  Will drew back as from a tigress.

  Anne emerged from the barn with a jug of fresh milk. Her cheeks were flushed and her eyes dark-rimmed as if she had not slept. She passed by Will and Catherine, her gaze fixed on the kitchen door.

  “Stop, Anne, and hear me.” Catherine’s voice was hard.

  Anne set her jug on the doorsill and stood erect.

  “Will Shakespeare claims he made love to me last night,” said Catherine, her voice trembling. “I say it was not me but an impostor. Some witch, surely. What say you?”

  Anne said nothing. She swept her forefinger along her neck, pulling a narrow ribbon from within her bodice. Will recognized the ring dangling there and the truth hit him like a rock.

  “It was you?” he asked unnecessarily. For even without touching her now, he knew that it was Anne he had kissed, Anne whose body he had embraced, Anne who drew from him, on the brink of sleep, the vow that was as binding as marriage.

  How could he have mistaken one sister for the other? He looked at Anne, her hair brown like Catherine’s, her height the same, her face only a little more lined. Catherine had the flighty manner of a girl, but Anne had the firm confidence of a woman. And, it would seem, a woman’s cunning.

  “You deceived me, Anne,” he said.